The Y in Your Man is Silent

Im more conflicted than ever. I can’t seem to get it right with Elik. When I think he has outgrown his wandering eye, he turns around and proves me wrong! And when I think Im ready to leave him, he shows me the kind of love that only exists in fairy tales. It’s no secret that I love Elik, maybe more than I should in fact.We’ve been together for so long, I can’t imagine finding someone else and starting from zero.Underneath that serial cheating(which I’ve gracefully made peace with, judge me not) lies a very good guy.He kind of walks that fine line between good and bad with a perfect stride. He’s a good coke zero paid with a chip roll and as a bad period pains on a winter night. But I love him. with everything in me. I love him. He’s a mess of glorious chaos that I sometimes hate to love.

But can I rescue him from himself? Can I juggle my PHD and Children?I mean I still want to travel the world some more, make my own children and graduate on time. Also, I havent given up on the possibiliy of walking down the ilse someday. But since my lobola failed dramatically, what next? Can I still marry him without my parents blessings?